Come lovely and soothing death

Come lovely and soothing death,
Undulate round the world, serenely arriving, arriving,
In the day, in the night, to all, to each,
Sooner or later, delicate death.

Prais'd be the fathomless universe,
For life and joy, and for objects and knowledge curious;
And for love, sweet love - But praise! praise! praise!
For the sure-enwinding arms of cool-enfolding Death.

Dark Mother, always gliding near, with soft feet,
Have none chanted for thee a chant of fullest welcome?

Then I chant it for thee - I glorify thee above all;
I bring thee a song that when thou must indeed come, come unfalteringly.

Approach, strong Deliveress!
When it is so - when thou hast taken them, I joyously sing the dead, 
Lost in the loving, floating ocean of thee,
Laved in the flood of thy bliss, O Death.

From me to thee glad serenades,
Dances for thee I propose, saluting thee - adornments and feastings for thee;
And the sights of the open landscape, and the high-spread sky, are fitting,
And life and the fields, and the huge and thoughtful night.

The night, in silence, under many a star;
The ocean shore, and the husky whispering wave, whose voice I know; 
And the soul turning to thee, O vast and well-veil'd Death,
And the body gratefully nestling close to thee.

Over the tree-tops I float thee a song!
Over the rising and sinking waves - over the myriad fields, and the prairies wide;
Over the dense-pack'd cities all, and the teeming wharves and ways, 
I float this carol with joy, with joy to thee, O Death!

-Walt Whitman

I love Saint-Saens' Violin Concerto No. 3...holy god the end of the second movement is gorgeous

I finally found out what the words mean.

Je m'baladais sur l'avenue le coeur ouvert à l'inconnu
J'avais envie de dire bonjour à n'importe qui
N'importe qui et ce fut toi, je t'ai dit n'importe quoi
Il suffisait de te parler, pour t'apprivoiser

Aux Champs-Elysées, aux Champs-Elysées
Au soleil, sous la pluie, à midi ou à minuit
Il y a tout ce que vous voulez aux Champs-Elysées

Tu m'as dit "J'ai rendez-vous dans un sous-sol avec des fous
Qui vivent la guitare à la main, du soir au matin"
Alors je t'ai accompagnée, on a chanté, on a dansé
Et l'on n'a même pas pensé à s'embrasser

Hier soir deux inconnus et ce matin sur l'avenue
Deux amoureux tout étourdis par la longue nuit
Et de l'Étoile à la Concorde, un orchestre à mille cordes
Tous les oiseaux du point du jour chantent l'amour

a meaningful conversation....just to say I told you so someday.

me: you know....i've been wondering for years now when we will undergo a social reform
hmmm
and it seems as though it's on our doorstep
like prohibition

rob: YEAH
i was wondering that too

me: we got upset about all our travesties and such

rob: i think you are right
its like ready to errupt
i totally agree
exactly

Michelle, ma belle

Wow.

I finally watched Michelle's speech from the other night (I fell asleep the first time around). It was very moving. I don't think I've ever actually sat through an entire political speech. I tried watching the last State of the Union Address last year. God, that was awful.

Michelle is so graceful, and eloquent...it's true that behind every great man, there is a great woman. If you read his book, you'll know what I mean. It's amazing that someone has finally stepped forward to say "I have faith in this country and I am proud of what we can do." I have never felt so incredibly inspired by anyone....any normal person.

Go on.....watch it again.

http://www.barackobama.com/tv/

Celebrate normalcy and values!!!!!!!!

and delicious burritos!

I know everything sucks, yeah

First....I am at Fresh Side and BOY is it delicious. This is my Pad Thai!

Hello world!

So I drove into my supervisor today while he was on his run (not quite literally...I was driving, he was running...you understand.) and we got talking, as two people are completely apt to do. I told him I have already started student teaching although, yes, I know my contract doesn't start until next week. It's completely fine, as long as I don't slip up, because I am not covered by any insurance with the university and only I am liable. Oh dear. I mean, it's fine because I'm not doing any teaching this week so I technically can't do anything wrong.

But here's the sticker: I feel as though I am doing everything wrong lately. That's bolded for a reason! It goes beyond my normal insecurities....I don't think getting up at 4:30 AM to go for a run is the right thing to do. I don't know if what I feel inside of me is right, and I don't know who to ask for the answer. Plus, I don't think I'll like the answer. Because I know the answer. I fear for my future regrets, and I fear tomorrow. I fear the answer, and I fear the mere thought of contemplating the answer. I hate doing it, and so much of me knows what I must do. It really feels like the whole world is against me for a reason I still cannot seem to fathom. Karma, schmarma. I just want my fucking life back.

In other news, HAPPY DNC WEEK everybody!!! It's going to be a great few days!

More pictures...because I am too tired to write.

this is our fabulous quintet at the HIGHLAND SLEEPOVER.....or one of them anyway...




a baby newt, also known as a Red Eft! Saw on a hike with Dustin. Delightful!

















Candid shot of one of our coachingzzzzz












Equinox pond with Dustin.
















Dude jumping from quarry!