Listening to: Mother We Just Can't Get Enough by the New Radicals

AH

I don't know what to do!!!!!!!

And it smells like a skunk in my room. My room isn't big enough for a skunk!

Crap!!

Sleepy...

I think everything happens when you least expect it. I was just having this conversation with my roommate...when you're not trying, when you're not looking for anything, when life is quiet and everything is okay...that's when everything will turn around.

Agh, God....listen to me. Rambling about absolutely nothing of interest. I guess I was just trying to make a point through some useless advice regarding apathy. But it's more than that. You do have to care. You have to care so much about everything around you...but then it leads to worrying and depression about just everything, you know??

Don't worry.

I'm going to bed.

In the now

Whenever terrible things, everyone should take a walk and watch Mary Poppins. Yes. That should do the trick. Supercalifragilicioucexpealidocious means "Atoning for educatability through delicate beauty"...which is accoridng to Wikipedia, so it may have no practical application then! It does recall good things, though. I swear Bert and Mary were having an illegitimate relationship. You know, if the fifties hadn't been so racist I would have loved to grow up then. Optimism was so ridiculously....THERE.

Oh My God. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory! Hooray!

Oh sorry, I've had a few ounces of wine too many. And not a dinner in sight!

Anyway...back to the last few years.

I'm not sure what happened to make me stop giving shits about life. It's not that I don't care and don't try and keep up with what is going on. With all the terrible things happening it's fairly essential to watch the news and be curious...though I'll admit it's not my favorite job as a citizen. Anyway, I suppose it was just that which made me stop caring. The fact that such horrible things are happening hardens us (and myself included) against life. Certainly it still breaks my heart to see the most awful things happen and the biased crap that goes through the media....

Right...well, it's impossible to live in a perfect world. That's okay. We've seen how that works. Communism is so good on paper.

Crap! I forgot what I was thinking about.

What do you think about the state of the world?

strangely addicting...

http://www.gamerevolution.com/goodie/flash_games/reaction_effect

I've got a lot to say with no time to say it. All my energies must go towards this other project I'm doing. Peace out!

What?

So. I've never imagined myself doing any of this, mostly because a few years ago I decided that ideas were for people that want headaches. I still believe it's true, but it's also a fact that I shouldn't run from, but rather embrace instead.

I often find myself in a spiral of depression when I start thinking about things, so I instead enjoy turning to mild, idle conversation that can result in a multitude of "lol"s and "hahaha"s. I don't think that's wrong....optimism is one of many things this world needs. And a facelift. And a good bath with little rubber ducky toys. And a mommy. (like in Hook!)

Hopefully this is the start of something a little more fascinating than what I call life. It gets pretty flippin dull after a few years of the same old things.